Rebirth.

I decided today that it is time to revisit my blogs. Reading through the past five years of my life was painful but also eye opening. I used my blog to vent about my life and how horrible it could be at times. Those bad days were brought on mostly by a darkness that I still fight today. But unlike those days I am strong and I am happy! I have found that I can overcome any problem in a healthy way with the help of my love. I know you shouldn't put all your eggs in one basket, but he is the basket that holds me together and I trust him with my everything. Without his love and support I would have never made it to all of my milestones. He replaced the promise ring I bought for myself in April 2009 with a diamond set. He was upset that we lost my original one last year while having the twins, but I think it was meant to be. The diamond ring represents my original promise to myself. The band reminds me that I now have a promise to my husband and my children on top of it all. This reminds me that my children have also given me a new view on my past. The things that once fueled me can no longer be. Not only because they are toxic to my health but because they could ruin my family. As a mother I refuse to place my children in a situation were they can be harmed. I look down at my new band around my finger and remind myself every day. It isn't about me anymore and that fact alone has saved my life!